Just one of those days......

So with all the planning for my European trip in May and with my birthday planning I haven't really thought about Chuck (fyi Chuck isn't his real name I'm just going to keep real names hidden) but tonight for some reason I caught myself smiling because I was thinking of his smile.....and that's where i cracked.....sort to speak. let me start from the beginning.


I met this guy threw out a mutual friend we had been getting to know each other for a couple of weeks we had amazing conversations but I never really thought of it to be something like "maybe this might be the guy for me" until we started flirting a little more and saying really corky stuff. we had a good connection has a lot in common. we had the same intrestes in movies, food, forms of love, life in general.

Hung out a couple of times and then he just disappeared...... and I felt stupid because I believed when he told me "I'm a gentleman and I can assure you I'm not like all guys" see this is the thing about Chuck, he's not a bad guy he's a great guy a very great guy there is no reason to bash a great when he clearly never did anything the only thing he failed to do is tell me that he no longer wanted to talk to me....I don't know if that was the issue. I tried to contact him via phone, text ( not the stalkerish kind like one time a couple of days) then I stopped for a week and half just to see if maybe he'll get in contact with me or that work has been so stressing that he needed space (he got a new job with the state that we live in) but nothing....so I decided to write him once last time I told him I wasn't mad or I wouldn't hold a grudge against him because I'm just not that type of person and it's true cause at this point in time I don't hold a grudge against him nor am I mad at him. I told him how it sucks not knowing if there was something said or done that might have been offensive and just to be clear with ya'll I didn't do anything or said anything offensive or creepy hahaha.

to make a long story short, I never received a reply from him and so I deleted the email account that he could contact me and never looked back...until know which I don't know why but for some reason today all I could think of was his smile, his sweetness, just him. I'm might sound stupid saying this but I thought He was my Romeo, but in the end I was never his Juliet. things happen in life and sometimes we just have to take the chance in order to know if something is gonna work. and that's what I did... I took the chance and I have no regrets =] If there is any chance "Chuck" might stumble upon my blog just know that your still a good man in my eyes no matter what.